Remember how my blog’s mission is to let you in on all the “stumblings” and “figuring outs” as I navigate through this lifestyle? This post is going to be one of those things.
So, I’ve been lifting for 5 years. The first year was pretty pointless and involved weights the same heaviness of my purse, and then I slowly started learning stuff but I was in no way eating quite right at that point. But the next 3 years? Why don’t I look jacked yet? Why do I only look like the below?
Inconsistency, that’s why!
Full disclosure: sure, I’ve been involved with fitness and nutrition for years, but I haven’t been doing things consistently at all. Every few days (or weeks) I pop onto My Fitness Pal just to make sure I’m not eating 300 grams of fat and 40 grams of protein, but tracking diligently? Forget about it. Yeah, I have Rogue equipment in my garage and I used to go to a great powerlifting gym but without a dedicated program or coach, my progress waned. I’d hop around from workout to workout, with a wisp of a plan in the back of my mind that changed based on my mood (or how late I was running). It’s no surprise I haven’t really gotten where I want to be yet. I’m all dream but no action.
So what the hell now?
I’ve always wanted a nutrition coach, but it seemed like a faraway luxury afforded by elite athletes, not some normal person like myself. I’m not going to be an elite athlete, nor do I want people to think I’m going to be and therefore deserve a coach. That’s a terrible way of thinking – why can’t I enlist a coach? Why can’t I be the best damn version of my “normal person” self?
Coaches aren’t cheap, however, and the thought of hiring Google to find one for me in the giant vault of online coaches seemed a little unpromising. Fortunately, I’d been following Adee Cazayoux for a few months by now (and I totally fangirled when she responded to one of my comments once on Instagram). As a Crossfitter and Oly lifter, she’s my ultimate role model and her positivity and open mindedness made a great impression on me. Of course, I failed to actually look at her Instagram bio (you know, right up at the top, under the profile picture). When I finally did, I wondered, “what’s Working Against Gravity?” and clicked on it.
It’s her nutrition coaching brand.
Um, obviously, that’s the one I picked. That decision took all but 3 seconds to make.
Except … there was a waitlist, cause it’s good. So I signed up, wondering if I’d ever get an opening.
A few very short weeks later, I did. I got a coach assigned to me, who is literally the living version of my pipe-dream future self, and this is where we are now.
Where we are now … and why this is so important
I got my macro assignment last week, and it’s less than I’m used to eating (and my goal is to gain muscle and improve my performance). But I have to trust the system – my coach is learning how my body responds to certain macronutrient levels. I’m learning too:
- First of all, I’m assigned 65 grams of fat. This, I am figuring out quickly, is waaaay less fat than I’m used to eating! Avocado, a Perfect Bar, and steak do not all fit nicely into a day’s work. Maybe this was contributing to my lack of progress (or NO lack of fluff and a good lack of definition!)
- I think I eat enough protein, but I’m always shy of where I need to be. Suddenly being forced to ACTUALLY track, (when I plan 5.5 ounces of beef, but all I have in my fridge is 4.1) well, you update that MFP log and make the rest of the day work somehow because that’s the rule. No more guessing games!
- I am 1000% more mindful of what I am eating. I’m so used to grabbing a snack on a whim, or defaulting to going out on the weekends and eating at my favorite spots – maybe that was setting me back? Being mindless?
- All the things I thought I was doing right, I was doing very inconsistently. Eyeballing portions, all those snacks adding up, etcetera. My eyes have been OPENED this week, to say the least! It makes it seem so painfully obvious now.
- Somehow, paying someone to make me do this makes sense. Clearly I alone can’t hold myself accountable, but knowing someone else is logging on every day to check on me, and every week to look at my progress, is a lot of motivation (and pressure). I don’t want to let my coach down!
Sometimes your dreams need someone else’s push
This process will teach me consistency in planning and execution. This is important, and this is what will get me to finally progress the way I want to (and have been wanting to, but have failed at). Why am I telling you this? Because I’m only human, I’ve made mistakes, and now I’m having someone help me figure this all out. I’m going to be very transparent during this whole journey because that’s just the way I am.
Will I use a nutrition coach forever? Probably not. But for now, it’s giving me the building blocks to understand the way my body responds to what I’m giving it, and when I’m ready to take on that responsibility myself, I’ll do that.
But I’m not ready yet!