I’m Rae, and one bodybuilding competition, five years of lifting (though I’m still really figuring things out), and one Crossfit contract later, I’ve finally decided to start a blog.
When I first started my fitness journey, I was in college. I was underweight, weak, and knew literally nothing about health. Feeling inspired by fit blogs I’d started following (specifically Cassey Ho, the day she posted about doing a bikini competition), I decided to go to the gym for the first time. Let me tell you, that campus gym was just about the most terrifying thing I’d ever set my foot in … my heart was pounding!
Looking back, I had always read blogs by girls who were already where they wanted to be (or where I wanted to be) – but longed to find someone just starting out, who could have their heart pound with me, as they learned and made mistakes one day at a time. Years later when trying to decide whether or not to join Crossfit, I had that same longing again – I wanted to read about a beginner’s experience: their trials and mistakes and baby steps. I would like to provide that for you, now.
What this blog is going to be about, and why you should read it
While a lot of people wouldn’t consider me “new” to the fitness scene or a beginner, I still find myself stumbling over the massive vault of nutrition and health information on the internet – and I’m far from where I’d like to be! What are you supposed to believe? Who do you listen to? How do you know if something is going to work for you, individually? Fitness involves a lot of trial and error, something that took me years to figure out (like, spending ages on an elliptical or anything similar made me miserable – it took me forever to find lifting and actually enjoy working out!)
I hope to catalogue my experiences as I fill in the gaps in my own knowledge, and write the kinds of posts I had tried to search for when I first started out. I want to tell you about my first day at Crossfit rather than looking back a year later through experienced eyes, and tell you what it’s like messing with your macros til you get it right, and my daily thoughts and struggles I have about what being healthy is supposed to mean to all of us. I’d like to be an open book and a companion to anyone looking to learn and change their health for the better.
So, a little bit about me!
I did a bikini competition.
The kind where you get spray tanned the darkest possible shade of brown and stand on a stage while you get physically scrutinized by people you don’t know. The two girls that beat me had breast implants, and that rubbed me the wrong way. I left the world of bodybuilding after feeling like it was too superficial – I wanted to be a part of something that celebrated goals, not looks. And coming from the fashion industry where looks can be everything (and body image isn’t the healthiest), obsessing over my physique and calories wasn’t the best for me mentally, either.
Yes, I work in the fashion industry!
I am a knitwear designer for a major American retail brand. I went to school for fashion design and discovered knitwear was my calling – and pledged to learn as much as I could! Even though I know every in and out of a knit garment now, I still think knitting is magic. I like to consider myself a sweater engineer.
My little family consists of my boyfriend and two fur babies.
Yoshi is a tabby with one eye and Zoe is a tuxedo (with two eyes!) Yoshi acts like a puppy while Zoe is your classic queen feline. They were both rescues and love having a forever home! Every day when I wake up I am jealous of their perfect little lives as they snuggle deeper into our comforter while I have to get up and get dressed. I’d love to be a cat in my next life.
I LOVE to eat.
I never miss a Restaurant Week, I have 19 different Pinterest boards all dedicated to food (organized by category no doubt), and I was blessed with a photographic memory for menu descriptions of the foods I (or even my friends) have eaten. I was a vegetarian for 5 years and discovered the beauty of many diverse ethnic cuisines (Ethiopian is my favorite) and while I eat meat now, I tend to always gravitate towards vegetarian dishes! My favorite foods have got to be goat cheese, avocados, lamb, donut peaches (please if you ever see these at the store get one), and straight up rice (yes I know it’s boring but you love what you love).
I have now drank the Crossfit koolaid and I’m not going back.
Remember that bit where I said I wanted to be a part of something that celebrated goals? Crossfit is that something. After years of lifting (and frankly, spinning wheels) in a commercial gym or at home in our garage gym, I was finally convinced by a friend to join. The motivation and support is unconditional, and just after four short months of Crossfit I’ve seen by body change faster than any other thing I’ve tried. My mind has also benefitted from this – I push myself harder, encourage myself more, and feel more confident every day.
That’s all for now – I hope you’ve enjoyed getting to know me! Don’t be shy, I look forward to getting to know you through comments and discussions under each post – please say hello and reach out with any questions or ideas you may have! As much as I want to help you through this blog, I have so much I can learn from my readers as well.